If you have not taken the time to press pause and reflect on the first three months of the year just yet, be sure you do.  And be as detailed + thorough as possible.   Do not rush the reflections or skim over the details.  It all matters.

And who knows, you may discover that you’ve accomplished more than you’re acknowledging or that you’re biggest mistakes and heartbreaks were your most profound lessons.  You may discover that you’re hardest challenges were what catapulted you closer to your dreams or that letting go of X made space for Y.

No matter what is revealed, the point to remember is that the choices we make from moment to moment are in fact creating our reality + shaping our lives.  Pausing to look back is an opportunity to see EXACTLY how the choices you’ve made have led you to where you are right now.  It’s an opportunity to be grateful and an opportunity to redirect your course, if need be.

So don’t skim over the details.  Be as specific as possible.  It’s all part of one big masterpiece called YOUR LIFE.

Here is a summary of my own personal reflections, celebrations + revelations.

The defining moment: New Years Eve – the night everything changed.  

My heart shattered into a million pieces while my body sighed a big relief and my soul whispered ‘let go + rise’.  Surrounded by thousands, embraced by a special few, I soaked in the sounds of the monks chanting + watched the first sunrise for twenty-twelve with only this reminder: love is tender, life is precious and the universe always has my back.

{soundtrack: No Light, No Light, Florence + The Machine}

 

The highlight: receiving the keys to my new apartment.

This is ‘officially’ my very first place to myself.  No partner. No brother. No parents.  It’s a sacred space just for me + my two kids.  And the number 5 on my front door is the perfect symbol to represent what this highlight really means to me: realignment.

{soundtrack: Good Feeling, Flo Rida}

The best decision: moving back to the city.

Last time I was living in Brisbane I was celebrating my 21st birthday, I was recently married and just gave birth to a little girl, I had just graduated from uni and I was addicted to teaching Group Fitness classes.  My mantra was “no rest for the wicked”.

It’s been six years since then and a lot has changed!  With my feet firmly grounded into the earth + my arms wide open to all the possibilities, I am definitely feeling the freedom of spreading my own wings being back in the big city.

{soundtrack: Shake It Out, Florence + The Machine}

The breakthrough: breathing life into my heart.  

After my “defining moment”, I thrusted myself into survival mode moving cities, securing a roof over my head, settling my kids into a new school, putting food on the table + working my ass off to finance it all.  I hit the road running…and only paused long enough to catch my breath so I could keep going.

But when you stay in this mode for too long, it’s very easy to adapt to the stress + the tension + the overwhelm and accept it as the new normal.  So you have to invite frequent doses of stillness into your life and allow yourself to quit doing and just be.

Stopping can be scary, especially when it means  breaking through the protective walls + surrendering to what is.  To breathe life into your heart requires courage + compassion.  And because it’s where the truth lies, it’s totally worth it.

{soundtrack: Breathe Me, Sia}

The biggest lesson: You can’t tell someone how to love you, but you can CHOOSE how to be in relationship with someone’s lovin’.

I got schooled this lesson at Oprah’s Lifeclass.  It permeated every cell in my body and reminded me that there’s gotta be boundaries, even when there’s a lot of love.  This lesson is filed under ‘self-love’ and ‘self-worth’.

{soundtrack: Go, Delilah}

 

The selfish ritual: morning juices.

I committed to this ritual at the beginning of the year and feel so much better for it!  My favourite: carrot, green apple + beetroot (sometimes with ginger and sometimes with mint).

{soundtrack: Beautiful Day Remix, Laid Back}

3 words to describe the past 3 months: liberating, challenging + vulnerable.

Right now: I am bursting open with gratitude, soaking in love and falling into joy

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So what about you?  How have your first three months been?  

What was your defining moment?  The moment that changed everything + steered your ship in a new direction.

Your highlight?  The ecstatic moment, the one that brought you the most joy.

Your best decision? The moment that opened up all the other possibilities + opportunities. 

Your breakthrough? The moment you had a big ‘aha’, an epiphany, a realisation. 

Your biggest lesson? The moment that scarred your heart, inked your skin + got encoded in your soul.

Your selfish ritual?  The thing you committed to just for you.

Right now?  How do you feel now, in this moment.

Love Susana xo

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Pssst…Selfish for 27 days is coming this week!  Stay tuned for more!