{Introducing a new segment called “Intimate with myself”. Here I will share reflections of my inner experience…the conversations, the sensations, the emotions and the powerful insights.  It doesn’t get more intimate than that.}

My inner critic is going nuts.
The voices in my head are telling me all the reasons why I should stop thinking about her.
And more importantly, why I should stop feeling this way about her.

But my body is telling me otherwise.
I want her.
And I want her now.
I can’t resist this feeling any more.

Except she isn’t here.
I am home alone.
And the voices tell me I should get use to this because she’ll never be coming here.
In fact, she should never come here.
And, I should never go to her house again.

The war inside my head paralyses me.
It’s fucking exhausting.

And then, I remember to breathe.

Inhale…
Exhale…

“Take another breath”, I say to myself.

Inhale…
Exhale…

And then just like that, it happened.

All of my attention shifted.

It was no longer focused on her.
It was no longer focused on the object of my desire.
It was no longer focused on something outside of me.
And it was no longer draining me.

Instead my attention shifted inwards.
It shifted to the sensations inside my body.
Inside my body.right.there.

I noticed a bubbling.
A few minutes later the bubbling turned into a swirling.
A few more minutes later the swirling turned into a pulse.
A few more minutes later again the pulse turned into an explosion.
And eventually, the explosion turned into a melting heat that rippled over every inch of my body.

I was ecstatic.
I was full.
I was alive.
I was whole.

Whatever I was seeking in her, I found in me.
And that’s what I call freedom.

Let this be an invitation for you to embrace the experience of desire instead of focusing all your energy on the object of your desire.