Photo credit: Bee Bosnak

“Now…take a step forward”, she said.

I heard her loud and clear, but I didn’t move.
I needed a moment to ground, to feel my feet connected to the earth beneath me.
I needed a moment to quiet the voices, the voices that were telling me I was taking too long.

But the deeper I came into contact with my body, the more I noticed my body shrink back.

My shoulders rolled forward.
My chest collapsed.
I felt deflated as my body did what it could to protect my heart.

It was subtle.
Had anyone been in the room with me, no one would of noticed.

But I did.

So I told her.

She told me to breathe into my heart. And I did.

She told me to access the part of my heart that is strong enough to handle any sort of hurt…the tender part that may get broken (open). And I did.

Then she told me to access the strength of my body, my belly centre… to contain that open heart…that broken heart. And I did.

It was here I felt safest.
I felt held.
I felt supported.

And all I was doing was being fully present to what was here right now.

Then she asked me, “Susana, what are you stepping forward with?”

Before I could reply, I instantly became aware of a bright light radiating from inside the center of my chest.

This light began to grow brighter and brighter, bigger and bigger.

Meanwhile, I started to feel lighter…
and lighter….
and lighter…
until lighter had no meaning.

My feet were no longer touching the earth.
Yet, I was moving forward…with my light.

Effortlessly.

Next time you feel like you need to step up or step forward, drop back into the essence of who you are and let your light carry you.

Remember, there is nothing for you to prove, nothing for you to get and nothing for you to do.