If you missed part one, go here now and read it first.  Otherwise, let the journey continue…

January 2014

• It’s 2014. The year is fresh. The slate is clean. The canvas is crisp white. I’m ready to make some sexy art I call life.  I spend a full day mapping out 2014. I declare my word for the year and my core desire feelings. I call in the Goddesses to be on my cosmic support team.  It’s time to get out from behind the scenes AND behind the screens. And by the look of the retreats I’m feeling called to attend this year, it’s time for more soul embodiment and deeper sexual explorations.

• I receive my official Deep Coaching Certification. This training changed my life. Say no more.

• A new project is starting to bubble.

• I start to venture back on online. But I stay away from ALL facebook groups and everything to do with the madness of December.  As Brendon Burchard says, “People on a path of purpose don’t have time for drama.”

• I meet with this babe in a cafe to discuss my next career move.  Clarity is the goal. Confusion is the outcome. Patience is the medicine.  I want to move NOW (god damn it!) but all signs are saying not yet.  Plans need to be revised. There’s more going on than meets the eye. I surrender.

• The next S&M Conversations interview is set to go live but is canned literally moments before I hit publish. Something tells me this segment is trying to get my attention but I don’t know what it’s trying to tell me.  Again, I’m reminded to be patient and all will be revealed.

• I see a photo of me with a mic in my hand along side Brene Brown and Alanis Morissette.  I’m taking it as a sign that all is well and that my energetic vibration is way bigger than I’m honouring. So I surrender. And when I think I can’t surrender any more, well, I surrender even more.  Simultaneously, I announce LEAD WITH SOUL.

• Beyonce drops her latest self-titled album. She has finally given herself permission to express her sexuality FULLY through her art. She reminds me to quit holding back, to go all out. Meanwhile, Beyonce’s partitions video clip, convinces me that she downloaded some of the same visions I received in my 8th chakra. Either that, or I just need to go visit Crazy Horse in Paris, the inspiration behind that song.

• Twelfth soul essence is complete.  Next up, Chakra 9 journey.  But first I need a breather.

February 2014.

• My mantra for the month is “I am open to all possibilities”. 

• I’m asked to write a guest post on freedom and because this word is the reason I do what I do, I’m able to share a sneak peek into one of my 8th chakra meditation experiences where I am reminded that one’s purpose to run free is enough.

• I spend half a day at a Korean Bathhouse. I observe the importance of this ritual amongst the asian women here. I’m intrigued. My day ends with a 90 minute full body sea salt scrub and massage. I’m reminded how important and essential touch is, especially when you’re living the solo life. Meanwhile, I dream of visiting day spas weekly…and not just once a week.

• This wild dreaming leads to wild dares. I dare myself to tell a new story, to throw it all away, to jump ship, to go rogue, to burn it all, to risk losing it all, to die…and to be reborn (again).  That’s why I wrote this post.

• S&M conversations tells me it wants an upgrade. I start noticing the word “podcast” everywhere. I put two and two together and realise these conversations on sex and love are craving a bigger platform, on iTunes apparently. Oh, and it wants a new name, LOVE SEX DESIRE. I’m not entirely sure what this all really means but I think, “Cool, I’ll rename it and shift it onto iTunes. No big deal. I already have my February interviewee lined up. I’ll just push it back to March so I can give myself 2 weeks to sort it out.” Ahhhh….the perks of being naive.

• Everyone’s asking me about the next sacred dance party.  I tell them it’s coming soon. Really really really soon. If only I could find the perfect venue!

• I discover Allie Theiss. I have a sexual energy reading with her (highly recommend!). I read her book Out of Body Ecstasy in a day. This book explains so much of what I’ve been experiencing most of my life, but now I don’t feel like such a crazy woman.

• Closure.  I never knew something could taste so bitter-sweet…yet feel so peaceful.

• I have a coaching session with my Deep Coaching mentor (for the record, all great coaches have coaches).  The outcome of exploring my inner terrain is this: “Let your light carry you. There’s nothing for you to do Susana.” Got it! There’s nothing for me to do. Except, my inner critic is struggling to grasp this one.

• Later that week, a new wave of male energy enters my orbit. Dinner and a night out with four men proves to be enlightening and eye-opening as we delved into hot topics on life, business, sex and love.  The best discussions (and insights) happened at the strip club. This was a practice in non-judgment, acceptance, curiosity and most importantly, ignoring the story and seeing the soul.  Plus, there is great power in experiencing contrast.

• I receive a message from my friend in the US. It reads, “the amount of synchronicity in my life is bordering on enough to invoke a psychotic episode.”  I couldn’t agree more. The people I’m meeting, the conversations I’m having, the articles I’m discovering, the books I’m reading, the emails landing in my inbox, the stories being shared with me, the experiences I’m having…it’s all blowing my mind WIDE open.
  

March 2014.

• A have a session with Belinda. It’s been 2.5 months since I last spoke with her. My 8th chakra journey is complete.  I feel full. I’m not yet ready to journey into my 9th chakra. I need more time to digest.

• Meanwhile, LOVE SEX DESIRE has asked to for it’s home to be beautified.  I contact a web designer and I find myself having a photo shoot with this drop dead gorgeous babe. She hires a studio, I bring the music and together we make magic.  And the dress I wear is called VENUS by FAITHFULL. No surprises here!

• The following day I have a kinesiology session with Mel. Apparently there’s lots of Goddess energy in my 9th chakra, in particular Goddess Freya. I’m not surprised – she’s been on my cosmic team since the beginning of 2013, except now she’s leading the pack.  I spend most of the session swimming in liquid gold. At one stage, I’m covered in a gazillion shimmering stars (it reminds me of this scene from Fern Gully). It’s pure ecstasy. I tell Mel that I feel like I’m making love with the elements.

• Before I leave, Mel shows me this link on Goddess Freya. It’s a photo I’ve never seen before and I can’t help but notice she’s all gold. We scroll further down and there’s a ritual suggestion called, making love with the elements.  I am officially a believer. Shit just got real!

• By the end of the week, LOVE SEX DESIRE has a new logo, but she’s not ready for the world this month like I originally thought. Instead she’s asking for a slow burn (a new concept for me in more ways than one). She tells me she’ll be ready on Friday June 6th. I start to cry. I’m instantly teleported back 9 years ago. A defining moment of my life. One day to be written in a book. But right now, in these tears, I know a cycle has come to a complete end.  And my soul has been revived and is leading the way. 

• And, I finally found a venue for a sacred dance party. Except it’s not just a sacred dance party.  It’s LOVE SEX DESIRE Embodied. (Save the date, Friday May 9, Brisbane)

Let the adventures continue.

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PS. For those wanting to know more about the 8th chakra journey check out Belinda Davidson’s School of the Modern Mystic. Enrolments close TODAY March 31 and open only once a year. So if you’re feeling the call, all I can say is trust it.  And be sure to let me know if you join!